in deep thoughts

testing....

2009-11-08T00:19:00.001+08:00

abc.....

this christmas......

2008-12-25T15:01:00.002+08:00

wow.... this christmas is really a fun filled one......

Much earlier while i was shopping at AMK hub.... i went into Art Box having the intention to get myself a organiser.... but.... i jus couldn't resist the temptation.... the schedulers are so useful and sweet... so i decided to give all of each... and give it to my closer dance mates... they are extremely happy... and kept saying thank you to me.... haha..... Its fun giving small little things once in a while... hee hee.....

then 17/12 (wed) i bought chocolates for all of them for christmas... hahaha..... they worked so hard for the upcoming performance...... its good to see them so motivated....

20/12 (sat) woke up early in the morning.... to fetch my precious dear back from 4 months of sailing..... its sweet when i first saw him... but when he came down for ship.... a sudden sense of unfamiliarity emerged.... i was wondering what happened to me......

these few days was good.... accompanied him most of the time.....

1. buy new bike
2. sign HDB letter
3. watched movie with haojie and my friends...
4. BBQ at micheal's house.... ( i was totally enjoying myself with the setting up of the BBQ, till one of his friends came to spolit the mood.)
5. went pub with his friends... had christmas eve dinner at Manhanttan - The Central and pub at Yellojello retro bar.... ( i did not like the music there, its not ours like of music, i prefer R&B.)
6. went to his god mum house to pass her souvenirs.

i am so blessed that he came back sound.....

* And of course i have neglected my dearest sisters..... i will arrange to meet up with u guys soon k..... *
i am so packed these few days..... jus give me a bit more time.....

updates.... and updates....

2008-12-05T15:46:00.003+08:00

i had ended my days with the former company.. and currently slacking at home and doing some part time jobs.. hee hee....

went for a few interviews and now waiting for calls... i wonder how long i have to wait due to the current financial crisis....

tmr have dance practice at 1030am. i hope i can wake up on time.. hee hee...

15 days till he's back. (Yeah)....

think i have to start clearing up my room before my mum start nagging at me... cos chinese new year is coming..... in less than 2 months... can u believe it???

long long time....

2008-11-21T12:31:00.003+08:00

Its been such a long long time since i updated my blog...

6 months long in my first official full time job.....
less than 1 month till he's back........
1 month till i officially sign letter of lease with him for our house....
5 months till Dance PP.......
6 months till my birthday......

time really flies.... i wonder if everyone feels the same....

good song..

2008-09-28T00:59:00.001+08:00

萧亚轩 - 冲动
很感激这城市拥挤的交通
让你我还能多相处几分钟
人潮中怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手
一刻不放松不放松
忍不住想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我会有点寂寞
你给的幸福在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受
不怕失落关于你的一切
我想要比谁都懂
我的心是被你设定的闹钟
提醒我想你的时间不够用
为什么平淡的事情现在忽然生动
是你改变我你改变我
你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落

tired... missing him...

2008-09-24T12:41:00.003+08:00

today, again couldn't wake up for work and took half day. Partly cos i was having headache and a bit of coughing.

its been near to a month without him physically at by side, but he is always been in my heart. He will call when time permits and each call is not more 15 mins. though its short, it just made my heart melts once again. I miss him so.... much... sometimes cry in the middle of the night while waiting for his call.

Its a challenge i define,
its a endurance i must take,
its a truth i must accept.

Hold on there dear, it must be hard for u..

Dance performances...

2008-09-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

Last week went for Shi Hui's dance performance at VT.. the show was great and the dancers performed very well. I envy of their skills and techiques. Its so up to standard.

Then today went for the Guang Dong dance performance... Its far below my expectations... They are professionals and should make little or not mistakes.. but i spotted quite a few.. and one even fall down. The group dance was not neat at all.
After which me, jingyi, weiting, shi hui, shi hui's sis and friend and alan went marina square for late lunch cum dinner.... mean while still deciding where to go after tat... in the end, me, jingyi and weiting went shopping for a while........ felt bored and decided to go for some ice cream, "i suggested" eating Andersen's ice cream again.. hahaha.. we sit and talk and talk.... till abt 10..

Its great chatting and enjoy the ice cream with them... Felt so great that they accompanied me. Thanks jingyi and weiting...

Sianz....

2008-08-20T16:53:00.002+08:00

Well, everyday work as usual and i m tired of it.. Sometimes i jus wanna a break.

Today took leave and stayed at home to slack.. and partly because of the monthly thingy that makes me feel so uncomfortable. I hope tmr will be better..

I am glad that i m entering another phrase of my life. With him beside me, jus feel so secured and loved... though sometimes we may argue abt things, we always settled it peacefully. I am happy, what can i ask for more...hahahaha

Sick...

2008-07-22T12:51:00.002+08:00

I am sick... down with flu, cough, sore throat and fever... went to see the doctor and was given 2 days MC..

Haha, 2 days MC means a lot more of work for me when i go back to work.

I am back from Bangkok

2008-06-26T23:08:00.002+08:00

Back from Bangkok but... i still can't get enough of Bangkok.. Cos i want more shopping and shopping... haha..

My dear cousin is going to Australia to further her studies.. wishing her all the best... She is the closest cousin and i adore her very much.
When she break the news to me, i am very happy for her. She got the choice she wanted. But on the other hand my heart sank a bit (being a bit selfish) cos i will be missing her.

I believe she is going to make it through over there. ALL THE BEST, ANQING !!

Start work officially, tired and a bit sleepy today... after tat left early, went PS for dinner then to DAISO to buy some stuffs to DIY.. haha.. I want to decorate my work station. haha..

Holidays....

2008-06-19T00:39:00.001+08:00

Tmr this time, i will be in Bangkok... YEAH.... i am so excited....

Finally.....

2008-06-11T00:01:00.002+08:00

Finally exams are over and i m starting work right after tat... isn't fast?? haha.. cos i dun wan to waste time.. hee hee...

my plans....

1. taking up driving lessons... (but still considering)
2. go back for dance
3. slim down and do some weight control
4. taking up ACCA (still considering)
5. spend more time with him... cos he going for overseas deployment soon...

happy...

2008-06-09T12:10:00.002+08:00

tmr is the last day of exams.... yeah... i am so happy and looking forward to it.. haha...
Wed, start work after tat going dance... after which maybe going clubbing.. hahaha
Thursday, catching Kungfu Panda.. hopefully....
Friday...... haven have any plans yet...
Saturday.... going dance audition with yin... jus for fun...

I am looking forward to the Bangkok trip... haha... i will shop till i drop.. haha... can't wait... jus can't wait

Functions of Financial Intermediaries

2008-06-05T01:43:00.002+08:00

Financial institutions must fufill the 2 belows

1. Brokerage Function - Financial intermediaries match transactors and provide transaction and other services. It reduces transaction cost and remove information cost without altering the nature of the asset.

2. Asset Transformation Function - Financial intermediaries issue claims that are far more attractive than the claims issued directly by corporations. As they are of lowering montioring cost, lower liqudity cost and lower price risk.
Financial intermediaries holds long term, high risk and large denominations claims issued by borrowers and finance by short term, low risk and small denominations deposit claims. It hence alters the nature of the claim. In asset transformation function, it involves asset diversification and the evaluation function. In the first case, it transform large to small denominations claims to fit the demands of households. The ability to exploit sub-optimal portfolio choice of depositors, thus reduce transaction cost and employ diversification for the benefit of both.
In the second case, it filters to evaluate signals.

hates...

2008-06-05T01:24:00.003+08:00

i am beginning to hate this exam.... why does it have to drag so long... and i am dragging through it.. it simply making me no mood to study for it. cos its dragging too long.. and i prepared it some time back.. and imagine reading the same stuff over and over again.. it jus makes me wanna puke... but still have to keep reading and memorise it...
i can't imagine myself surviving through this 1 month of exams....

let me teach u some things abt delegated montioring.

Delegated montioring reduces the degree of information imperfection and asymmetry between ultimate suppliers and users of the funds. Its main constraint is the cost of information collection, as it need to be montiored in a timely and complete manner. Failure to the above would expose investors to agency cost. Individuals place funds in banks and banks invest directly to financial corporations giving it an incentive to montior and collect information. But free rider problem exists, to solve this banks can profit from the information by primarily making private loans which reduces the average cost of information. Banks act as an agent for the depositors. Monitoring of borrowers involves increasing the return to scale which reinforces the view that it is most efficiently performed by specialist intermediates. Montioring may not be as reliable and monitoring must have incentive to perform properly and that is through reputation effects, banks have developed substantial amounts of reputational captial as monitors of credit risk.
The used of portfolio diversification enables low cost delegated montioring which is the analysis of the cost and benefits of montioring. The net demand for montioring depends on the cost of montioring and also depends on the number of lenders.
Delegated montioring pays off when
K + D where D = delegation cost per borrower, K + D = cost of montioring, S = contracting cost of montioring, and m*K = cost of direct montioring.

wondering.....

2008-05-23T02:53:00.005+08:00

sometimes i wonder why there is a need for exams?

sometimes i wonder why having dinner together can be stressful?

sometimes i wonder why blessing from parents can be important?

sometimes i wonder why live in unhappiness but in fact u can live happily?

sometimes i wonder why one can be so hurtful in words?

sometimes i wonder why relationships can turn sour?

sometimes i wonder why one can easily be influenced by another?

on the way back to TM, i almost cried, but i hold back my tears.
i jus dun know wat to say to u.
i have a urge to leave u
i jus can't stand it anymore, though i know u are suffering silently.
looking back, we had went so far and been through those good and bad times. i jus need some time to think abt it.. jus give me some time.

the fact of reality

2008-05-23T02:17:00.003+08:00

sometimes i really wonder is it so important to strike 4D?

what are the things that u know what to do? besides nagging.. and showing a darn black face.
then how do u expect the fortune god to give u some luck.

As many assume, buying 4D is purely trying luck. But what happens when one is too obsessed in striking 4D then is that considered as gambling? or is it when the betting gets large and uncontrollable?

is it buying 4D just playing and guessing? when does it comes to a point whereby u restrict ur kids what colours to wear? what clothes to wear? what things to carry as it brings luck?

going to the extent of throwing away dark coloured clothes and wearing bright red underies...
what's the point of doing that? can someone enlighted me? i am really puzzled by how people can be so obessed with feng shui and striking 4D.

Is it too over?

As there is one old saying (in chinese): "coming into this world with nothing and goes off with nothing." and "what's yours is yours."

updating again...

2008-04-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

here i am updating again... after so long.. haha..

i am officially on " holidays" again... means i no need to go to sch and work.. but exams in 2 weeks time.. i m in deep shit.. 5 papers this time round.. i really hope i can score well cos i started studying earlier this time. some more this time, papers are far a part so have more time to revise for the next paper..

I am looking forward to holidays after exams.. going Bangkok again.. and here comes my shopping spree.. haha..

After exams really need to go back dance and prepare for next year PP. heard that its in VCH.

My dear officially ended his course yesterday with an end course dinner at demspey rd. They played games and its all related to beer. They played games like who's fastest drinker, relay drinking and stuff.. Its an eye opener and i met one of his friend's gf who works at E&Y (one of the big 4 audit firms) I was quite impressed that she was working there for 2 years already. She was like asking me to join in too.. (I was like where got so easy to get in..) After which, we went to Powerhouse to drink again.. haha.. both of us did not drink much only had the covered drinks.
Went to the dance floor but the music wasn't nice. We got home at around 2 plus.

Studying..... and Studying....

2008-03-13T14:14:00.000+08:00

Had been studying and studying for the past week....

Actually thinking whether i should go for dance on Saturday... But... thinking only..
21 march got performance, if i go back sure need to dance de.. So..... maybe not for the time being..

Finally.....

2008-03-06T13:34:00.002+08:00

Finally dance PP is over...

Some things happened, and i dun wish to mention. Now i have to seriously start mugging non stop... Exams coming in the corner.... Stress level going up and up again.... Help me...

Updates since dun know when...

2008-02-04T12:06:00.000+08:00

Had a very happy Christmas and New Year and now CNY is coming... and i am sick...

Really sick.. i diarrhea-ed for 16 times since yesterday morning.. Went to the hospital, the doctor wanted to put me on drip then observe me for a day. But i dun wan.. Now suffering at home. Still keep going to the toilet and started vomitting. Dun know whether is a good sign.. Cos i always wanted to lose weight.. and its the best time now.. hahaha... maybe i m mad. But jus so be it, cos i hate it when ppl say i m fat and need to lose some.

Anyway, CNY coming means V-day coming means EXAMS coming.. and i haven even really started..only started a few chapters of each and trying to do all the tutorials... Feel so shitty now..

updates

2007-12-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

It has been months since i updated my blog... sorry ppl... haha

Today was down with fever, cough and flu. Thats why did not go to sch and work.

For the past few weeks have been too tiring for me. I worked almost 9Hrs everyday on my working days... too little time to rest.
A few weeks ago, went out with my usual grp of friends for some catching up and chatting.. and guess wat, i was 2 hrs late. We were suppose to meet at 6pm, but in the end, i reached there at 8pm. haha.. sorry guys.. Then, Shawn gave me the BEST EMPLOYEE AWARD.... haha...
Then the next outing, we went to NYDC for a celebration of Birthdays.. haha... And Shawn was like teasing me again.... Asking me how come i was not late.. Ha ha... At the end of the meal, Shawn passed me the receipt... asked me to calculate the bill... as i m the SO-called Accountant in the grp... so funny can... and they tried to talk to me and making funny faces... Shawn even tried to bluff Zhizhong (asking him to pay more) haha.. Its always great fun going out with them.

Last week went to ang mo kio hub with my sisters... caryn and bing.. we had ice creams @ Andensen.. the chocolate fonde... my treat, and they are so happy. Its a once in the blue moon thing.. Its great to have lovely and supportive friends with me.. Thanks bing and caryn...

My dear went overseas for abt 2 weeks... He will only be back on 11 Dec.
Dear, faster come back can?? I m missing him lots already.

Updates....

2007-10-08T09:24:00.000+08:00

Wow.. now then i realised one month did not update my blog.

Well, school started and i have been busy working and studying at the same time. its kinda of stress and difficult to cope. Today, dun feel like going to class later. cos firstly i lazy and secondly the lecturer only reads from the notes. and i will fall asleep soon or jus simply not paying attention. i rather read it at home.

Celebrated his birthday with him on his birthday. Booked a chalet and invited his friends over for BBQ. It was supposely a surprise birthday party for him. But one of his stupid friends told him on msn. I felt so angry and till now, the angry feeling is still there.. even though he told me jus take it as he dun know and continue the plan. But wat is done is done. i have the feeling tat he did it on purpose.

the conversation according to him.

F : Hey, ur birthday coming rite. u booked chalet?
H : huh? no lei.
F : Oops... i forgot cannot to tell u...
H : tell me lei...
F : Cannot la. Later ur gal sm me.
H : then u wan me to sm u or my gal to sm u?
F : ur gal booked chalet for u la.
H : Oh.. thanks..
F : dun say i say one lei.
H : ok. Bye bye, gtg sleep..
F : ok. bye. See u on ur birthday.

Does it sound like telling him on purpose. After hearing this, i felt totally no mood. No mood to continue all my plans.
When i saw his friend on his birthday, i had confirmed with myself. He is jus another irriating pest.
dun talk abt this anymore.
I ordered ice-cream cake from JJ's cousin's cake shop. the cake was delicious. Jus a bit disappointed by the design of the cake. Should have it more classy. Anyway, everything turned out well, his friends left abt 10pm. then we clear up the room, watched TV and sleep.

Tired....

2007-08-29T10:12:00.000+08:00

Monday nite, he did something very sweet and romantic.. heehee...

Yesterday, i was a bit not feeling well at nite.

And today i was tired and lazy, so took half day leave in the morning.. and here i m typing this entry.. hahaha...
So fast sch is starting soon and tat means my exam results will be out soon too. I will be working and studying at the same time too.. same as last yr, but this timeround, i think my stress level will increase, cos its office like of environment and work. i believe i can do it.
Working almost everyday except wed, cos have class in the morning and afternoon and i wan to go for dance practice.
Just now, i jus weigh myself. SHIT.... i gain weight again... this holiday i gain lots... must lose weight liao... if not,i can't wear dance costume. hahaha... Saturday dun know whether have to work, if not i wan to go dance.. so long did not go practice liao. Cos work and they having exams. i think abt 1 month did not go back liao.

Thursday going watch dance performance.... so happy.. long time did not watch liao.

updates....

2007-08-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some time since i updated my blog. Everything's still the same.

Abt a week ago, i made him angry and i feel super gulity and bad abt it. Its a long story, think should be kept in the heart.
Yesterday he brought me to watch the fireworks at marina bay. The sound was heard long before we could see the fireworks. Its super nice and wonderful. This time round i saw fireworks in heart shape, then with many different shapes and colours. "wow! wow!" was the only words that came out found my mouth. "Did u see that?" though he was riding. We stopped once in a while to watch as there was super traffic jam. Police were there to direct the traffic.

He is in my room now reading comic. I feel so bliss with him around. Just now, my brother bought bubble tea for his friend. Then, i was like how come i dun have. Went to tell him, and he immediately said ok. "I go buy for you. What flavour u want?" He is simply so sweet.

I feel so lucky and pampered by him. Thanks dear, love u lots.

Missing him lots.....

2007-07-22T13:17:00.000+08:00

He is going sailing for a week.
for the past few days, thinking of him going off for a week. Tears jus roll down my cheeks. i think i jus need some time to get used to it.... Its his job, i jus got to bare with it.. i know its jus one week, but i got so used to seeing him everyday, fetching me off work and having dinner together.
He told me, more sailing at the end of the year... some 3 weeks, some 1 month.
i must learn to be more independent.

2007-07-08T01:36:00.001+08:00

Nothing much happened recently... went to work as usual.. and i got to help the AP dept with the receipts for 5 outlets, which is alot lor.. now my table is super messy and i dun like it.. so i packed the receipts, slack them nicely into a box... hahaha....

He came down to fetch me from work almost everyday, except for those days tat he has duty.. He got duty then i do OT lor.. haha..

Today went for dance in the morning then after tat went out with Yan and JJ for MAC.. hahaha.. i have been craving for it since friday morning.. haha.. after that Zhi came to join us.. walk walk around J8 then went to eat ice cream.. its nice and delicious.. cool atmosphere.. went Kbox in the evening.. haha.. then reached home around 11plus.. hee hee..

unluckily?????

2007-06-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

Went for dance as usual today... was expecting hui hui.... but she sent an sms this morning saying she was having a fever... hahaha.. why why why??
he came to fetch me from work.. dun know why he frustrated... then forgot to put the cashcard while entering the ERP... worse... he got more frustrated. i dare not ask more, jus keep quiet.. ate dinner at the bukit timah food centre, got cheated... the ice kopi costed $1.90.
dance ended very early today... 8 plus can go back liao...
he came hugging me and said sorry.... for his frustration... i am happy and touched.. at least i know he is jus not in a good mood...

Got job liao...

2007-06-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

i am happy with my current temp job.. the ppl there are friendly, nice and mostly importantly very helpful. for both days, he came down to fetch me for dinner then home.. i am simply so loved and luckily to u him with me always..

rotting at home....

2007-06-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

i think this is the first time i really rot at home and have nothing to do.. i feel so sian and down with luck.. i sent tons of emails searching for jobs and none replied... oh... are there really so many people fighting for the same job as me, or is it they are jus empty advertisment.. its like nearly 3 weeks had gone and i dun have a single job..... people.... help me.... i need help... i feel so useless and restless staying at home the whole day...

Holidays...

2007-06-07T14:11:00.000+08:00

I have not found a temp job... How?? What to do now??

Yesterday went to his friend's church wedding. After tat we went to watch Shrek 3, its was in the afternoon, saw a lot of sec sch students hanging around Tampines mall. Nowadays students really have good life. Eat what they want, spend what they want...... Sometimes envy them.
At night we went KTV.. haha.. it was fun.. sing until i no voice liao.. hahaha

Fun..

2007-06-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

Its so much fun having to ride on the bike... I simply love travelling on the road on the bike...

Wed went shopping at tampines mall and century square. Bought a pants, blouse and a shorts... then watched the midnight show.. Pirates... i think its too long.. i fell asleep a couple of times.. Had MJ session with his friends....

Thursday, public holiday... he came over then went to his house eat dinner... then went to play billards... aiyoh...

Friday, intended to go Sentosa... but raining.. in the end, we went orchard walk walk and shopping... hahaha... bought a bikni, dress and some hair accessories...
He bought 3 shirts... Very nice... haha.. one can wear go clubbing.. hahaha

Slacking

2007-05-30T01:50:00.000+08:00

Tuesday
Well, its jus a few days after exams and i am feeling like i had slacked too much.. Went shopping again with my cousin in the afternoon. this time was to Suntec and Marina Square.
Walk and walk and walk... till our legs sore.. haha..
Wed to Fri, he got off.... i am so happy....

Exams Over...

2007-05-29T01:39:00.000+08:00

I am so glad that exams are over...

Saturday, went for dance then went out to eat prata with Yan and JJ.. then went home. Planned to go for the Food Fest first then go Navy Open house.. but i was jus lazy and tired.. stayed at home read story book and watch TV.

Sunday morning ate Mac with mum... Afternoon, went to the food fest with mum, and we bought lots of things to eat.. hahaha.. till we can't finish lor.. Our favourite was the blended ice mango with ice cream. We were drooling when we saw others eating it... After which we went to queue for the bus to Changi.... then that officer said its closed.. due to over crowding, i was totally pissed off. Its only 4plus and it officially closed at 7pm. How can that be.. We jus walked off after more and more people gathered and quarrelled with the officers there.. Mum and I went to the nearby Coffee Bean for a drink. It was only after half an hour, then the officers let the public went in after so much negotiation. We did not go in the end. I waited for he till 8plus. He was super tired and wanted to go home bath. So we went home, he bathed liao. Despite of his tiredness, he went down with me to meet my friends and celebrated one's birthday. His face was black, its my fault. I led the wrong way and his bike went out of fuel. We reached, food orders were closed and we did not had our dinner.. but had drinks.. After saying good bye to all, we headed down for supper.

I am totally touched for the things he had done for me. He was really tired, but i wanted to going down, he did not say much and drove me down. Thanks for everything..

Third time on bike..

2007-05-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, he got his bike in the late afternoon. After settling all his stuffs its in the evening liao, he came over to my house fetch me. So sweet, i am very excited. He called asking me to prepare myself, as he go home bath liao then come over.. i quickly go bath then waiting for him excitedly. Jumping here and there waiting for him. We went to buy helmets near bugis there then went bugis for dinner.. It started to drizzle a bit then no choice have to go home lor..

Today, he came over accompany me study in the afternoon for a while then he go play soccer with his friends.. later he coming to fetch me go eat supper..

Happy Birthday to me..

2007-05-06T01:55:00.000+08:00

saturday, went for dance in the morning and they celebrated for me.. i m so touched tat yan and zhi came down.. hee hee... zhi bluff me said she not going lor.. cos her mum asked her to do something.. then she appeared in front of me.. ha ha.. Sang Happy birthday song.. i m so so so happy.. then lao shi put the fries in the cake lor.. asked me to use my mouth to take it out... aiyoh.... i know lor.. sure got cream on my face. "He" pushed my head down lor... haha.. he will get it :P haha.. although he helped me during bing's birthday.. JJ came down too.. drove zhi home then we went to eat.. at kovan the hongkong resturant. the mango snow ice was super big and 4 of us got to share to finish it.. Had so much fun today.. Yan wanted to go Taiwan in july, maybe i going with her lor.. haha..

a lot of things happened..

2007-05-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

firstly, i dun want whats so wrong with very little and light eyebrowns... i totally hate it when ppl say it. its my looks and my parents did not say anything.. who are to say such things to me...
Wat i only did was laugh it though, wat else can i do... Tatooing was the last thing i will ever do in life.. if u insisted... then i have nothing much to say but to leave...

secondly, i dun know wats wrong with me today... so frustrated and stress... watched TV from 530pm to 11pm..

with him the past few days

2007-04-24T01:05:00.001+08:00

went to his house to look after him for the past few days... he was super sick on sunday and went down to the hospital to see the doc... mum cooked green bean soup for him.. in the evening, he was very sleepy and slept soundly... tried to wake him up to eat dinner, was being scolded by him. then after dinner... ask him to eat medicine also got scolded, then he accidently spilled the medicine also scold me.. i dun know wats wrong with him.. Looking at him so sick, frustrated and scolding me.. i jus could not hold my tears.. i blamed myself for not taking good care of him.

Monday went to see him again, cos he got MC. only went in the evening after i done my revision. Accompanied him and played Maple... hee hee

He is sick....

2007-04-21T01:15:00.000+08:00

Went to meet him after mktg class at clementi.. and he looked sick.. asked him what happened.. he had a very terrible sore throat, and after dinner.. went to his house to look after him. Realised that he had fever too... Fed him medicine and played Maple on his com.. then went home by myself.. think he is still sound asleep now... Better get well soon k..

I got to really prepare myself for the exams... its really really coming.. and i must work hard and no more playing..

Sat..

2007-04-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday good friday, went to celebrate Bing's birthday.. had so much fun. Reached Caryn's house abt 2pm to do the big big card for her and to complete the photo album. He reached at abt 3pm. After tat abt 4pm, went over to Bing's house, help her decorate the house with balloons.. He is so good at blowing balloons, jus 2 1/2 blows can fill up a big balloon. Haha.. he helped hang up the balloons. Went back to Caryn's house to shower and her mum helped me tie my hair.. Becos Bing's theme was uniforms... then everyone went with them uniform and i m so cute and looked like 15yr old.. haha.. took lots of photos.. and we even went down stairs, got stares from people cos its like 20 over students from different schools gathered together taking pictures. Time for cake cutting ceremony.. haha.. helped her with the cakes.. and i saved the cream to help her "put make up".. haha.. She went chasing Caryn first cos she is involved too.. haha.. i went out, hoping can "camo" myself, in the end... i was being chased.. i ran downstairs and she put the cream on him.. haha..

Its been a very tiring day... went to Management House for revision.... then went over to Tampines meet him for dinner..
Tmr still have revision... SIGH... why saturday and sunday burnt with revision classes??
Then coming monday and tuesday also have revision classes...
Planning wed go for dance and thursday go swimming.. hee hee.. see how it goes..
I am going to revise my IM now..

Revisions...

2007-04-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

Had so much revision classes and revision to do..... this whole week was packed with the schs revision classes tat i got so tired..
today, woke up at 8am.. then i thought can sleep for 15 mins more, went back to sleep.. in the end i was late for class, woke up at 930am.. rushed to the bathroom.. and took a cab down to SIM Management House.. it was nearly Hwa Chong. The food there was super expensive.. jus imagine fried rice with beans sprouts and sambal fish (2 small pieces) costed me $3. And my friend bought fried noodles with bean sprouts and steamed tofu costed her $4.
After class, he came down, ate dinner with me.. and accompanied me.. Guess wat i did to him.. haha.. i plucked his "beard"... its so funny and i enjoy the process totally though he claimed to be very painful.
Enjoy looking at him while he falls asleep
Enjoy holding his hands while walking
Enjoy stroking his eyebrown while he is sleeping
Enjoy disturbing him when he is trying to sleep
Enjoy kissing him when he is sleeping
Enjoy smelling him while he is not noticing
Enjoy listening to him when he speaks

Thursday (29/03/07)

2007-03-29T20:00:00.000+08:00

He off work early today, went my house accompanied me study... He tired then fell asleep.... Some thing happened.. think i made him angry again....

These few days...

2007-03-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

These few days have been studying at home...
Today suppose to go dance, but ended up went swimming with him.. He wanted to lose weight and build up his stamina for his IPPT. After swimming went to go at the Japanese restaurant beside the swimming pool.. the food not nice lor... i would rather go to Sakae to eat.. cos its almost the same cost. He keeps nagging lor.. said i make him fat, always ask him to eat and eat.. haha... We went to play pool with Haojie.. cos we played very slowly then he got impatient.. aiyoh.. enjoy the game mah.. play slowly mah.. seriously speaking, i a bit scare of him when he gets impatient or angry then i dun dare to say or talk much.. cos things will get worse.
I simply love being with him... sometimes teasing him made me very happy..

Still sick

2007-03-25T19:27:00.000+08:00

Friday after work went to his Navy's chalet.. stayed there for a while, play cards.. then went home liao..

Saturday went dance together then he nagged and nagged and "suan" me all the way.. dun know why.. hahaha... At night went to celebrate his mum's birthday. Reached tampines mall, saw his mum then he wanted me to follow his mum up first, he go book tickets for TMNT. We took number and chatted a bit.. still feeling a bit weird lor... Passed her the present.. then i so shy can... haha.. i can't believed it myself.. His dad arrived, his mum showed him the present.. then he say can take out wear lor... Ordered dishes... his dad keep asking me wat to order... then i erm... anything lor... dun know wat to say. He and his brother reached, and jus then the dishes arrived.. i m like finally.. he is here... after eating.. went walk walk... jus before we went into the cinema, his brother brought some thing for me to eat.. then i asked him whether sour or anything, he said sweet lor... luckily i only take a some piece.. its ginger lei.......
After movie went to take bus home... jus board the bus then started to rain heavily... i am drenched... he ran home also drenched.. haha... i bath then do house work till 2plus then sleep...

Today woke up quite late... bro bought me duck porridge, ate then went to sch... so sleepy and my head is like spinning non stop.. Has been a week liao... still like tat.. i hate it when i m sick..
On the way, the "air con" bus.... wat.... dun have air con lor.. its like having sun tanning inside the bus... so irriated... Hungry then went to buy cup noodles... then he called and scolded me for eating cup noodles..

SICK....

2007-03-21T17:57:00.000+08:00

Sick today due to flu, fever, cough, headache and sore throat... then did not go to work lor... He came straight after his work to see me.. reached at 10 plus.. i so happy to see him.. he asked me why i sick still so happy... haha.. of course ma.. i sick then i come and accompany me look after me. after breakfast and slack a bit.. went to buy medicine.. he wanted to bring me go see doctor but i dun wan.. cos i know the queue will be very long.. must wait for a very long time.

A few things happened these few days.. i told my boss i quitting after one month, cos i wanted to concentrate on my exams first.. need abt 1 1/2 month break.. really need to study. I think i will miss all the kids esp Ivan.. cos i really love him.. he is very sweet and fun to be with..
Aunty also quit, cos she not happy with certain things...

This coming sat, we celebrating his mum's birthday.. going out to eat.. hee hee.. i m getting excited and a bit nervous. cos i brought his mum a present. dun know whether she will like it and wear it.

Updates....

2007-03-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

CNY jus officially ended yesterday... Haha... i totally enjoyed myself and forgot all abt my prelims...

First day of CNY, as usual went to my 4th aunt's house in the afternoon.. Celebrated the feb babies... haha...
Second day, went to my big auntie's house, he came to my house...
Third day, went to his house, his mum suddenly said wan me to go with them to his 5th auntie's house... after which went to Lee Kim's house... then went watch movie, eat supper...
Eight day, went to sch for lessons... then went to laoshi's house celebrate CNY.. saw meiyan, Meizhi, xiao hui and her abit handsome, ah pui jie (got hongbao fr her) haha... and a lot of seniors.. we were all talking abt dance and the upcoming PP lor... Promised laoshi to dance for PP liao.. hee hee... i am so happy to see tat we are still so unity and still keeping in touch with each other... still having the same passion for dance... After which went to Caryn's house, her mum cooked my fav.. Mee Siam.. hee hee... eat happily.. then she suddenly asked me... Where is he.... hahaha...

Investment prelim was a killer... i spotted all the questions and it came out.... But... i forgot... my mind was blank.. sigh..... its only a prelim.. no marks is counted... so dun have to worry so much... i came out in 1 1/2hr... went NP, wanted to find Mr Tang.. then he not in office.. having meeting bah... went SDAR looked for Rose and Mr Lee to chat a bit then went home..

last sat went his house to wake him up.... he requested lor.. then i go over lor.. he asked me how i came to his house.. he dun have confidence in me lor... said i took cab to his house.. i took 27 and walked all the way to his house lor.... the day before planned to go wild wild wet.. then he dun wan.. so did not go.. the whole day at his house... i studied and he played maple.. i was very tired and a bit moody.. then a small quarrel lor... but after a while den ok liao..

skipped CF paper today.. cos haven studied much... dun wan to waste time and effort go down to sch.. in the end... i ended up shopping with my mum and sis... its a long time since we went shopping together... went to shop for his mum's birthday present.. at first wanted to buy a handbag... then did not see any nice ones.. then went to jewellery shop to look look... in the end, bought a pendant for his mum and a braclet for my mum.. hee hee.. i practically slack the whole day watching TV and slacking and slacking.. dun have mood to study... how how how.....

V-Day...

2007-02-17T03:52:00.000+08:00

About a few weeks back... i was pestering him asking him wat he bought for me... but then nothing came out from his mouth then the day arrived...
Actually, he arranged ppl to send me flowers in the morning, then i have no class on that day. Last min, my boss wants me to work full day on that day... He changed address 3 times with the florist.... and guess who's the florist... Its Kaiyan and JJ.. According to kaiyan, JJ wrapped the flowers and he was the delivery man too.. haha...
At night, he booked a chalet... He decorate the room with beautiful balloons and candles...
Asked and begged me to close my eyes before presenting the present to me..
First he showed me the flowers.... Later on, he took out the necklance and put it around my neck. I am so touched... Intended to go for a walk at the beach, but both were lazy and i wanted to watch the drama serial on TV..

troubled....

2007-02-11T03:46:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder whether we are the right one for each other. sometimes i really dun understand u and i no longer feel what u feel... are we apart?
sometimes i dun understand what u are thinking, no longer think what u are thinking... can anyone tell me... ? ?

2007-02-04T01:48:00.000+08:00

Jus wondering why someone can't jus accept the fact of some things, and still keep on asking. Is it so difficult to put it down? It has been so long... so long ever since ......... Why can't u jus let it go? Why can't u jus move on? Do u know u are causing problem for me?

Sunday...

2007-01-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

Went for his friend's baby full moon party, after which went home to change... then accompanied him to soccer. Haha.. the wind was strong and cold.. and i am shivering out there... Well, enjoyed watching the soccer match..
A few days ago, he told me he had plans and prepared something for me on V day.. he told me he jus smsed someone.. Being naughty and curious trying to find out who he smsed... think i irrirated him and made him really angry... i am really sorry.. cos i am just plain playful and trying to be funny..
When he is acting to be angry.. its really funny lor.. then i will be laughing non stop... Sorry... i think its his face.. i jus simply love to be with him and enjoyed every moment with him.

Back from Holiday...

2007-01-26T00:10:00.000+08:00

Haha... guess where did i go???
i went Bangkok again, went there shopping, a bit of sight seeing and meeting my friends..
i enjoyed the whole journey totally, with him accompany me all the way.
Reached the airport, was welcomed by Benz and Ball. Fetched us to the hotel.
First day, we went MBK, Siam center and Hollywood.
Second day, we went JJ Market and Chinatown.
Third day, we went Paragon, Central World Plaza and Platinum.
Last day, we went MBK again, to the Temple. ( i forgot the name. )
The last day, i was not feeling well, had stomach pain. Benz drove me to the hospital. The doctor gave me an injection, so painfully lor. i cried and Benz laugh at me.. After which, we rushed to the airport.

not feeling well

2007-01-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

I dun know wat happened to me recently tat i kept not feeling well.. having very serious chest pain till i had a black out the other day. I dun know wat happened to myself.

Am i giving myself too much to do? Am i forcing myself too much?

Reminders....

2007-01-12T18:36:00.000+08:00

Things i need to do... and remember....

19 Jan - Hand in IM assignment (chapt 6 & 7), IM test (chapt 3 & 4)
19 - 23 Jan - Holiday.....
25 Jan - Marketing Quiz (chapt 8, 10, 11)
1 Feb - Marketing Test (chapt 8, 10, 11 & 12), eREV registration 6pm
15 Feb - Hand in CF Assignment
1 Mar - IM Prelims
5 Mar - CF Prelims
8 Mar - POA Prelims
10 Mar - MKTG Prelims

A Brand New Year....

2007-01-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

Well, its the start of a brand new year...

Spent the whole of new year's eve staying at home trying hard to study.. but... did not manage to do much...
On the second day of new year, was kinda insulted by someone, shall not say much.

Its time for me to plan.... My New Year Resolutions....

1. Do well and have good grades for my exams.
2. Exercise more.
3. Lose weight, at least 5kg.
4. Work harder to earn more money.
5. Learn how to save more.
6. Learn how to see things from a different perspective.
7. Practice dance more and improve more.
8. Learn to be more independent.
9. And..... etc.......

"I maybe greedy... but who on this world is not greedy. "

Christmas Party

2006-12-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

Today had Christmas Party at the Centre.. so fun.. i collected lots of presents too... I am so happy... seeing one of my new kids start talking to others and the teachers.. When he first came to the Centre, he doesn't want to talk to anyone nor answer anyone. We had to guess what he wants... Now that he slowly picks himself up and tries to talk to others. Its a great improvement.

stress

2006-12-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

I dun know why i m so stress recently... stress till i jus can't concentrate on anything.... Feeling down and dun have the mood for anything... i might jus cry any moment...

How to have more time for myself... How to earn more money with very little time... i need money, i dun know how i am going to pay my sch fees next yr... Teach me how...

Sick

2006-12-07T11:01:00.000+08:00

was sick the whole of yesterday.. dun know what happened.. Had headaches, giddy head, going faint and vomited. I physcially slept the whole day, too tired and restless for anything. I was happy that he came to take care of me...

tired

2006-11-25T01:45:00.000+08:00

these few days have dance reheresals till i very tired.. Want rest a bit more also cannot...
Coming thursday have marketing quiz and i have not even touch anything on it yet... OH NO.... How???

Ask him not to come and fetch me... cos i know he tired and a bit sick... then u know wat.... He is playing majhong with his friends lor... i m so ....... by it. Sick then have to rest mah... still want to play.. dun know wat he is thinking..

Busy

2006-11-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

I think i m getting busier and busier each day, with the upcoming holiday programmes for the kids and sch tests and assignments, i think i m dying soon....

This coming saturday, CASSC Annual performance.. i m looking forward to it. Hee hee... it has been a while since i danced at LT 26. Its a rare chance bah.. Ha ha.. i think next year dance PP will be held there too...

Yesterday suppose to go Sentosa to enjoy the rides and have some sun-tanning.. But in the end, dance dragged, and i only reached there at 7 plus... Went for dinner with Benz and the rest..

.......

2006-11-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

Saturday went for dance then after that went tampines mall.. hahaha..

He came to wait for me for dance and bought MAC for me lor... so sweet... BUT... hahaha.. told him dun buy MAC liao cos fat... He still buy.. haha..
JJ bought MAC for yan also then yan has fries lor.. i dun have.. i have burger only... so sad.. haha...
Rachel, Jiayin and the rest keep eating her fries during dance lor... till dun have fries liao.. haha... Lao Shi angry then confiscated the fries.. hahahaha..

Lao Shi asked me whether want to go outside the dance troupe to dance for their upcoming annual performance in next year August.. She asked Ah Zhi, Lu, Yan and Noorin to go.. But... Lu says if i going then she go.. We said if noorin go then we go... hahaha.. then Jiayin said i go then she go... STRESS lei... Still thinking whether i should so.. cos i know my own standards mah...

Today sunday, later going SUNTEC with him.. hee hee..

I m back...

2006-11-06T19:21:00.000+08:00

Back for a few days liao... hee hee..
Nothing much happened.. Missed dance and friends... esp... Ah Zhi and Yan.. haha.. Confirm going dance this coming wednesday :) Jiayin was like asking me how come so long did not see me.. hee hee.. sorry lah.. busy lei..

going bangkok again...

2006-10-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

Yeah..... i am going bangkok again... meeting my thai bf hahahahahahaha.... (joking la)
going for a "business" trip.. hee hee.. I am looking forward to this trip.. Leaving tmr nite and will only be back on tuesday nite.. 5 days.. haha...

Yesterday went dance, lao shi said meizhi deprove a bit.. i think i also deprove liao.
After dance, he waited for me in the canteen and sent me home.

Today, during marketing lec, i dozed off a few times.... (tired) then saw wat i wrote.. its like?? wat m i writing.....

Must study...

2006-10-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

Hmm.... i should really start studying manz.. have not been working hard for the past one week. Have not done my tutorials and revision for the topics... Oh My.....

Yesterday went for dance.. realised my flexiblity deprove a bit liao.. cannot slack anymore.. must continue to practice hard. Yesterday, on the bus, on the way to sch, Ah Zhi smsed me say she not going... Miss Ah Zhi.. haha... she is my dance motivation...

I wan to dance for AP... hahaha....

Sunday...

2006-10-08T18:12:00.000+08:00

Stayed at home the whole day trying to study. at last finished one topic on marketing.. hahaha.. i am behind i think.. still have investment, corporate finance and POA to do. Help me... haha... Tmr have study grp, i really hope i can finish some tutorial questions there.. hee hee...

Yesterday went for dance. Gave Noorin a surprise... haha.. Guess wats her birthday present?? Everyone in dance bought a can of Coke for her.. haha.. and wrote our wishes for her. She simply love Coke.. and of course we bought her chocolate cake and chocolates..

Post children's day celebration

2006-10-02T19:07:00.000+08:00

Had Children's Day celebration at the centre. Then my kids asked me why i give their stationery. hahaha.. then get what?? i was thinking.. haha...

Yesterday went out to study at my friend's friend's house.. Very funny lah.. cos his house dun have fridge. haha.. then he also very blur.. Anyway had a great time there and Shiqi lends me to play games on his laptop. hee hee...

Busy... Busy

2006-09-24T17:34:00.000+08:00

Had been very busy the past one week, did not get enough sleep and rest... and finally sunday is all mine for me to rest.. hahahaha...
Went clubbing yesterday at dlbO saw..... Ah Zhan and Ah Wee. haha... thought can see SY, but walked 2 rounds also cannot find him. Maybe he did not go bah.. haha
Pls help me... give me the mood and motivation to study......

Saturday

2006-09-16T19:20:00.000+08:00

Today is Saturday.. i can't believe myself that i m actually slacking at home doing nothing. Was planning to study and revise a bit of what was being taught but..... i went to bed. Was too tired after everything. Did not get enough sleep the past few days due to the trip, work and school..

I agree that we human beings need some time for ourselves. but too much time for ourselves equals to boring and nothing to do. haha...

Back

2006-09-14T19:11:00.000+08:00

Hey, i m back from Bangkok.. hahahaha....

Bought lots of things at a very discounted price. i wanna thank Doreen, Caryn, Ball, Ben and his family for making this trip so fun and safe.

Now have to start studying. Term had started corporate finance and marketing lectures were interesting. i hope tmr's investment lec will be fun. :)

Yoz...

2006-09-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

Next week at this time, i will be in Bangkok.. haha... going with my friend for a short holiday..

Well, past few days had been the same.. Nothing much happened. Saturdays went out with the usual group of friends, enjoyed their company very much. Well, sometimes i will drift away daydreaming abt other some stuffs though they are "laming" into their own world.. hahaha...

Thats all for the updates.. i shall update more when i m back.

Time passes...

2006-08-15T10:11:00.000+08:00

Time passes so quickly. Its the 2nd week of August already. Had attended 2 POA lectures and its boring, cos most of the things we had learnt in poly. dun understand why we can't have tat exempted.
Had been very busy the passed 2 weeks. My weekends were filled with outings, with friends. Really enjoyed the outings with them. As friends are always there when we need them. thanks guys... Love u guys lots...
This coming sat have another dance performance again.. i m soo happy.. hee hee... got to meet up with AH ZHI... so long did not see how liao.. but its jus like 2 weeks did not see her only... haha.. Taking dance exams again this time round.. i hope i will not be as stress as the last one.
Tats all for the updates today.. will blog again when i m free.. hee...

Boring..

2006-07-31T00:21:00.000+08:00

One week had passed... nothing much had happened..
Sat, went to jb with my friend, did some shopping but did not buy much.. hee hee...

2006-07-23T01:48:00.000+08:00

Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!

ODAC orientation camp

2006-07-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

Its an enjoyable camp with all the friends and the nature. I enjoyed trekking the most though its my first time trekking and i had a hard time trying to find where to step. All thanks to my partner, he took care of me along the way. Jus wan to thank everyone for everything which made this camp so fun and wonderful. Without u guys its impossible.

BBQ

2006-07-09T01:36:00.000+08:00

Today had BBQ with dance grp... YEAH... so happy though have to spend alot on travelling.. hee hee.. when we reached there, meizhi and I went to rent a bicycle. We cycled to the end of the east coast park then U-turn back. So much fun..

Had fun BBQing the food and sharing the food together... Had an enjoyable and wonderful time with them..
Thanks gals...

Looking Forward..

2006-07-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

Looking forward to the BBQ session again this coming saturday and the Changi Beach Outing with my fellow YEC members...

Then next saturday i have dance performance in sch.

After which i will be having an Overseas Orientation Trip... Yeah....

Breaking off

2006-07-03T00:14:00.000+08:00

Jus break off not long ago.

Bridging Course result...

2006-06-27T01:07:00.000+08:00

I am super happy with my bridging course results. I got B+ for Econs and D for Maths.

Saturday, celebrated Meizhi's birthday at Pasir Ris Park BBQ. She is super blur lor, dun even know what happened. We planned to stay overnight there, but the weather was not good. In the end, we went to JZ house to stay over... I am very happy for her, she finally master the skill of cycling.. haha...

Graduation

2006-06-14T00:39:00.000+08:00

wow.... time really flies. i got my graduation cert on 13 june 2006. Its a memorable time spent in poly.. Now i m looking forward to the Degree cert that i will be getting 2yrs from now... hee hee... best wishes for me and all the good luck..

Updating...

2006-05-29T00:52:00.000+08:00

Wow... i can't imagine i have not been blogging for such a long long time liao... hee hee..

Well, things are fine for the past few weeks.. Tmr is the first day of the school holidays, well i really hope the kids at the centre will not be naughty, if not, it will be a hard time for me..

This month celebrated our 1yr anniversary. Dear booked the sky dining. Its so fun and exciting. Thanks so much dear..
Yesterday, dear went to my house for a surprised visit. I was very touched, did not expect tat he would come. He was tired and almost slept immediately after laying on my bed. In the evening, as i was craving for soft shell crab, we went to sakae sushi at suntec. Planned to go to the book fair, but its too late. He got to meet his client in between our dinner, i waited for him as i scrolled the menu and ordered food to eat and ate slowly.

Better... and busier...

2006-05-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

Well, things are getting a bit better liao.. i understand him better and he understands me better too, which is a good thing to both of us. Simply Love Him to Bits.. I love u dear, must study hard for tmr's paper k..

he jus dun understand...

2006-04-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

how can a gal not talk to her bf?
how can a gal stand it when her bf is too busy for her?
how can a gal not worry abt her man?

?????

2006-04-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

i dun know whether its a right choice to leave him alone.
i felt so miserable at times, but i jus couldn't call him.
he is well-liked by his female friends, should i feel threatened?
he is always busy, should i feel relaxed or worried?

First week of Bridging Course..

2006-04-07T18:44:00.000+08:00

Well, the bridging course was fun. Met up with a few friends who had lost touched. In those three days of the week, my dear bought food for me to eat.. hee hee... Monday was Indian rice with 2 drumstick and fried sotong. Tuesday was Bee Hoon and Thursday was.... my favourite Long John Silvers... I am so happy to be with him.

aiyoh

2006-03-31T00:45:00.000+08:00

I was being tagged by my cousin, aiyoh.. its a very troublesome thing to do.. can i dun tag it?? Today went out with my cousin, Connie.. hee hee. Went shopping in the end, i bought a pair of shoes and jeans (sponsored by my dear) haha... Its been a long time since i went shopping, actually i wanted to buy more like, long sleeve shirt, pants, collared shirt and ....... i guess i have to stop thinking of the things to buy, if not i will go drop dead... haha..

Bored..

2006-03-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

Saturday nite, went out with my CC friends for supper. Its always fun and fulfilling to be with them. Their chats and talks always let me learnt something new each day.
Sunday went to the Tea-session with my CC friends again. We went to the ACM, its quite an enrichment journey in the Museum. Learnt about the different robes from China, the different centuries and the representation of certain animals in the olden days. Well, after which i think most of us are very tired. We went for another Tea-session at Bishan then went Chomp Chomp for our dinner. Had sting ray, lala, porridge, kangkong and a super big cup of sugar cane juice.

sad...

2006-03-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

i dun know what i have been thinking recently. i m feeling very stress. maybe its after the big quarrel with my dear. i really dun know whether contiuning this relationship is a good choice. maybe its time now that i really think what i really need, and whether i m really comfortable with him. its a hard choice to decide. i guess it will be good for the both of us. pls let me think abt it.

Happy??

2006-03-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

i dun know whether to be happy or not.. yesterday saw the admission letter from uni. I wasn't as happy as i thought. i always dreamt to be in uni so that i can earn more money.. haha..
after receiving the letter, worries came in.. where is that large sum of money?? for my uni fees, i got to work extra hard to pay for those fees. STRESS...

Quarrels......

2006-03-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

last till this morning was the most terrible day of my whole life. i simply cried like hell and did not even had a blink of my eyes for any rest. even till now, i might jus cry anytime, but i must be strong and promised him that i must not cry. i will keep the promise till as long as i can, so not to worry.. i will never forget what happened last nite, remember every quarrels that we had more than sweet memories that we had together. i m sorry to say this. thinking back i think we had big and small quarrels almost every month. i understand each move and step of what i m doing. like what i said in the afternoon.. i really mean it.. i hope what u messaged me is all true. i still want to thank you for everything.

wasting time...

2006-03-05T19:21:00.002+08:00

today i m practically wasting my time on nothing.. cos nothing to do then i came in to change blogskins.. hee hee.. nice rite...
early in the morning went to teach tuition, reached home watched TV then grandma came, we chatted and watched TV together.. so good and relaxing..
yesterday went out with my darling in the evening, we went orchard window shopping. He wanted to watch movie, " Final Destination 3" but, i dun want cos saturday ticket very expensive, moreover he needs to save money. So we went just walk around, walk till PS. He, the playful boy wants to shoot zombies, we went to arcade. He shoot lor, then i beside him supporting him.. the zombies so disgusting lor, he asked me whether i want to join him, but i dun want. cos i dun know how to shoot, dun waste money. Time is still early, he went on play scoccer.. i played the bomber man on his phone... haha.. so fun, everytime i m very careless, also bomb myself. the day ended so quickly, it was an enjoyable evening spent.

wasting time...

2006-03-05T19:21:00.001+08:00

wasting time...

2006-03-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

updating..

2006-02-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

haven been updating for a very long time..and its the time i should..

well, with exams round the corner, stress and i was been hosptialise for 2 days made my mood worse.. i simply dun have any mood for anything.. and yes.. anything..

Hope i wished he is beside me always... so silly rite... then he will say "my silly gal, i m always with u"....

thanks my dear for all the support..

After so long...

2006-02-17T01:26:00.000+08:00

It had been a long long time since i blogged.. lots of things happened... like during chinese new year..., valentine's day...., and now exams are coming...

Totally enjoyed chinese new year, though every year is almost the same.. but this yr was a bit different.. i spent some time with my dear.. he came over to my house on the second day of the new year, and i went over on the third day after visiting my dance teacher. We went to catch a movie at Jurong Point.. Memoirs of Geisha.

On Valentine's day, he sent me flowers... so nice... it has been a long long time since i received flowers.. haha... super happy.. then he booked a restaurant to eat.. enjoyed the amibence and the food. After which, we went to esplanade for a walk, and chatted along the way.

Had a wonderful week...

2006-01-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

On wednesday, as promised, my bf came to fetch me home after my dance practice. He waited for me at the canteen for an hour and he did not grumbled anything at all. Still happily smiling at me and sent me home.
Thursday, he came over to accompany me, and we had dinner together. But... after dinner, i had a very bad stomach and had to rush home... to....
Friday, we went out after my tuition, to Orchard-taka. Then we had burger king.. heehee.. I went over to his house to stay as the next morning, i had to reach sch early in the morning at 9am, for dance practice and performance at Taka.
Saturday, dance performance was rush.. and due to the bad weather and the terrible traffic jam. we reached there just on time for the performance.
After which, i went home, took a bath and went out with him again. we played the soccer game at PS, then went to book a place at Fish and Co, as we had to wait for an hour or so, we took bus down to Orchard to shop for my new year clothing.. heehee.. We went back to Fish and Co to have our dinner. The environment is very good with live band music, so smoothing and relaxing. I ate sting ray with black pepper sauce and he ate seafood platter, we share a large passion fruit freeze and a cake... He slowly feed me the cake, gently put it in my mouth. The feeling of love spurred out.. The things that he hd done the past few months, the love and care for me, slowly came to my mind. I became so emotional at that point in time, tears flow down my cheeks and gave him a big shock. He thought something had happened to me. I m thinking just a week or so, we were quarreling and fighting, and we nearly broke off. But we had came so far to clear the misunderstanding. I realised the importance of his presence in my life.

Happy New Year to Everyone..

2006-01-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

Hey... Happy New Year everyone...

Its 2006 now.. welcome to a brand new year.. what are ur new year's resolutions? Haha.. well, i have not thought of mine as yet.. Maybe tmr, i will plan what i m going to do for rest of the year..

unwanted feelings..

2005-12-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

went out with my dear yesterday to get his stuffs at Bugis. towards the end of the day, something bothered me. and i just kept quite thinking of that issue.
is it true that feelings will slowly flade off as time went by?
friends around me left their bf cos they had no more feelings for each other.
why does this happens? is it because he is not the right one?
it simply makes me feel scare and afraid. what if one day my feelings for him had gone or the other way. how would the other party feel? i dun want this to happen. how can i prevent this from happening?
i wonder.....

My friend's birthday party..

2005-12-18T01:43:00.000+08:00

Went to my indian friend's brithday party. it was a good exposure for me as it was my first time attending an indian friend's brithday party. the environment and the food is good. just that its because most of our friends have lost touch with one another therefore there is more or less a gap between us. no common topics to talk abt, it just seemed cold. anyway, i had enjoyed half of the day with my dear, and i m happy abt it..

2005-12-13T18:37:00.000+08:00

As i was reading my cousin's blog, tears just went down my cheeks. The part that she mentioned at my grandma, i can't control my feelings. Memories of my grandma floated into my brain, memories of her bringing us out to the sentosa when we were small, to the airport and etc.
i regretted for not sending her off, accompanying her through her last journey. My mum and i stood by the window as we cried thinking of my grandma. due to some traditional myths, we are not allowed to send my grandma as my grandfa passed away a few days before her. each time i desperately wanted to eat ice-cream i would think of my grandma, because in the past she always treats me ice-cream when she came to visit me.

why do people have to die ?????

why is fate so cruel to some people ???

2005-11-30T02:04:00.000+08:00

Its so great to hear that my dear's exams are over and went to watch harry potter and ate sushi. i think this is the first time i spent so much on sushi... its $40plus.. oh my... anyway its a worth while treat for my dear's one month of hardwork studying.

School reopening on monday...

2005-10-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

what a holiday that i had wasted not enjoying myself. for the first week of holidays, busy looking for jobs and worked for 3 weeks. thought i could enjoy 2 weeks of break before the school starts but NO.... i had been busy practicing and preparing for my dance exams...

i tell myself i got to study hard and work hard this sem. as to prepare for a next start coming March into SIM if i can go in.